I have not written in my journal in such a long time, but now it is time to once again write. The reason for my long absence is quite simple, I was angry and struggling with my health. In February I was diagnosed with pre-diabetes, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol. I had let my weight balloon to a whopping sixty-five pounds over my max weight ( according to the weight chart hanging on my doctors wall,) of one-hundred and five pounds. I was angry at myself because I had let it happen, and because I had let food take charge of me, instead of the other way around. When my doctor told me it was either lose weight or die, and that is how he put it, I knew it was time to put everything aside, even my writing, and take charge of my life. I left the doctor’s office and came home and cried. Of course I did not let my husband see me cry, but I had to have my pity party before I could settle down and start my battle of the bulge. My pants size of sixteen was disgusting, not to mention that I really needed to be wearing a size eighteen instead; so I started to work on me. First thing I did was to buy a pair of size four shorts, which I started trying them on once a week. As you can imagine it was like trying to put a baby elephant into a diaper meant for a toddler. None-the-less I continued the self-torture of my weekly reminder of what I was hoping to accomplish, and pulled those darn little shorts up almost to my knees. According to Dr. Padget I was to stop eating anything that had sugar in it. This list included, along with the obvious sugar filled deserts, potatoes, pasta, and rice. I was to make sure that I ate seafood at least three times a week, chicken, minus the skin twice a week, and I was allowed steak with the fat trimmed, as well as lean pork only once a week. Can tuna packed in water along with fresh vegetables and fruit were the prefered lunch items. My doctor did not give me a complete list and I felt as though there was nothing left that I could eat. I was disgusted and angry with my few skimpy choices of food items, and I could not see myself eating meat and vegetables only for the rest of my life. I suppose you could say I was looking for an excuse to give up when I decided to go on-line to research my options, and what I found there gave me the will to fight and hope for my future. I started with looking up the American Heart association’s list of healthy foods, as well as the American Diabetes Association Diet, and found that if I followed their diets, as if I had full-blown heart problems as well as Diabetes, that I had plenty of food options that actually pleased me. I also ordered a wonderful little book called “The Shoppers Guide to GI Values,” and I plunged into the beginning of the rest of my life. I am proud to say that even though I am not yet to the desired max weight, for a five foot two-inch woman, I am now wearing my size four shorts, and they are not tight on me. I feel so much better about myself, and I know that as long as I eat healthy I will continue feeling this way, as well as not being ashamed of my size. If I continue losing five pounds a month, I will be at my desired weight by Christmas. If you wish to know more about how to go about taking charge of your weight and life, or just need a little support in your own efforts of weight lose, then feel free to respond to this journal entry and ask your questions. I will answer as quickly as possible.
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Wow! it has been such a long time since I have written in this journal, but I had decided to take off for the summer break. It feels as though I haven’t written for months, and I find that I miss writing. I must tell the truth, so when I say that I have not had a new story idea pop into my mind at all these last few week, unfortunately it is the truth. The only good thing about my summer vacation is that I have immersed myself into my reading, and I do love to read. One of my favorite authors, J.D. Rob, (Nora Roberts,) is due to release her latest FBI book on June 28th and I can hardly wait. Of course if I had it my way I would have her write a book a week, but sadly it is not possible for her to do so. J.K. Rowling is to announce her latest book in the Harry Potter series soon, or so I have been told. Now that is a book I will gladly buy, when it is finally offered. I loved the movies of course, however the books are always better, in my opinion. I have just discovered F. Paul Wilson and his “Repairman Jack” series which are wonderfully written. Hid genre is sci-fi and his style is easy-going and personable. I truly felt as if I personally got to know Jack and the crew while reading his books. To me, and my way of thinking, this is the sign I look for in my ‘A’ list authors. I am going to try to wait till classes start-up before I start back writing my stories, however… whether I can or not remains to be seen. I hope everyone’s summer is their personal best.
Finally…, I have finished chapter 22 of “The Bar.” It took me long enough to figure out exactly how I wanted to lead into the next part of Candace’s problems, but at least I now know which way I want the story to go. I suppose I will never understand how a character can take over a story and make the writer bend to his/her will, however they do rule the roost, so to speak. I will try to get the next chapter of “Mrs. Pettyjohn’s School of knowledge” as soon as possible. I am also writing two other short stories, hopefully I am not trying to write too many stories at once. Time will tell, or so I am told.
Well, I’ve done it again. I cannot believe I have not written in my journal since the 25th of April. I have been so busy rewriting, house cleaning, and visiting with my family that time slipped away from me with out my noticing it. I am working on the next chapter of “The Bar” at this time, and I hope to have it posted in the next couple of days. As I mentioned before, I am also trying to write a children’s puppet show, or perhaps I should call it a play for a three-year girl. I have never written for such a young child, or at that level before, and I am finding it harder than the play for adults, that I just finished writing. I am not sure if I will post it when I am finished writing it, but I will let you know at some time in the future.
I just posted chapter 11 of “Mrs. Pettyjohn’s School of Knowledge.” I am not sure how many more chapters of this story I will have to write, however I do believe there will no more than three. My granddaughter is into hand puppets, so I have decided to write a few small stories for her to enjoy while using them, for her characters. The first one, that I am working on at this time, is called “Happ-en-stance Hollow.” This story is about a family of country squirrels, and rabbits that live in a hollowed out tree, and the accidental trouble they get into. Well, that is what it is supposed to be about at this time. Of course my stories always have a tendency to take on a life of their own.
Some years ago I was blessed with a chance to live in Singapore. I had the time of my life, but more importantly, I made some wonderful friends. One of those friends, Lyn Goah, gave me her recipe for Sweet and Sour Chicken, as well as a few other delicious recipes. I decided to share this recipe today, and perhaps next week I will post her Fried Rice recipe. I am writing the next chapter of “Mrs. Pettyjohn’s School of knowledge,” today. I hope to finish by tonight, but who knows. It all depends on how many times I have to revise it.
Just posted chapter XXI of “The Bar” this morning. I have spent the last few days rereading the stories I have posted in the past, and I have learned one important thing. No matter how I felt about a story that I was writing at the time, I can now see the need to rewrite, and correct each and every one of them. Dr. French once told my class that by keeping your journal, blog, or both, that she could see how much we were improving our writing skills over a period of time. What she didn’t tell us, was that if we went back and reread them, months later, that we would be able to see it for ourselves. These last few days have been an eye opener for me. I am not pleased with what I discovered about my writing, but I know that it has shown me where I need a lot of work. Perhaps I will learn something from rewriting all these stories, and become a better writer. I can only tell you that if you want to know how well something you have written is, then put it aside for a few months, continue writing, then go back and reread your first stories. If you are still pleased with your previous work, then you are either ready to publish, or you are simply lying to yourself. Since I am not willing to lie, I will just say my writing was mediocre at it’s best. I am going to start tomorrow trying to rectify this problem if I can. I only hope one day I will finally be happy with my previous stories. If not, then I suppose I will just keep trudging on rewriting…, rewriting…, etc.
I decided to post chapter 10 of “Mrs. Pettyjohn’s School of Knowledge” today, and leave “The Bar” until tomorrow. I have a few things I want to go over before I post “The Bar,” and being as how I skipped last week, I wanted to go ahead and get the other posted. I am starting to wind down to the end of my “Mrs. Pettyjohn’s school of Knowledge,” and it will be finished in after a couple more chapters. In the next few chapters I plan to let them show everyone the tremendous power that they can wield, and the destruction they are capable of. Everyone in the small town of Dansville, California, that is. The message being…, It is best to be our friends, or at least leave us be.
The weekend proved to be a fun/ exhausting weekend. My
granddaughter spent the weekend with us, and on Saturday we went to my
mother-in-law’s home to celebrate her birthday. I am going to spend today
cleaning my home and writing the next chapter of “The Bar.” I hope this
week’s writing will be a bit more productive than last week’s writing was.
After writing and rewriting my story, I finally decided to give up on it and start over. I hate when this happens, but it is to be expected, however I do not have to like it. I think I will try to forget about it and start over on Monday. Sometimes I think I need to write a story using a totally different genre for a while. Oh well, at least it is something to think about.